I am not sure I told you that I have a BooThang now. LOL “BooThang”…I’m still trying to find names outside of boyfriend, but, yes, I am in a relationship and it is sooooo different. It is different because this is my first relationship (prayerfully my last) where we are both saved, both love Christ, both live for Christ and are both all about ministry and that is a bond like none other.
In a traditional timeline, this is all relatively new…pushing up on a month from “I like you,” but in another world, this is all so familiar. Whenever we’re together, I don’t feel that uncomfortability in the newness of getting to know someone. Honestly, it’s almost like we are relearning each other! (praise break) I love him to pieces…I really do and I think part of that familiarity comes from this place from which I love him.
I can give a list of things for why I love him but most of all, I am loving the Christ in him. Loving him is teaching and revealing to me, more and more, about the love of Christ. Again, this is the first saved relationship I have been in so there’s a different place from which I respond to this idea of “love.” I would say that many, maybe more like most, people love superficially. They love what someone can do for them, how they look…things that don’t actually matter when one is old and gray and can barely move…it’s a perishable love. But loving with the love of Christ, it doesn’t matter when you are in a t-shirt and bball shorts, or whether you come empty handed, I just want you.
In thinking about that, I thought about that I thought a lot about how we ask Christians respond to God. How many of us can honestly say that we just want God. If God doesn’t give us anything else, we are perfectly ok and just want to be in His presence? Most of us do not love God, we love the hand of God - what He can give us. That’s not real love; that’s perishable love - once the gifts run out and you can’t do anything else for me, I’m gone. Real love, unconditional love, doesn’t seek for the gifts in the first place…the gifts are a bonus!
When we start loving God for just being Him, then our lives will change. Have you ever had a niece, aunt, God-child, mother, grandmother, uncle, someone who you want to give a gift to just because of who they are? I mean, this person loves people to the very end and never asks for anything in return and they “deserve something,” and that something is typically something on the bigger scale? That’s how God is when we just want to be with Him - He can’t help but want to give us what we need, and beyond that, desire, simply because just spend time with Him, give freely, love freely, etc and it’s like, “Awww, let me give them something back.” However, you can do all of this and still do it for a reward which is not genuine but when you do it genuinely, a “reward” naturally comes.
I then thought about whenever the boo does something that comes close to irritating me, I instantly flip it to giving him the benefit of doubt…well maybe this or maybe that; I have probably gotten frustrated with him once so far (because I couldn’t find justification on his behalf lol) but I otherwise think of the best of him and then start wondering if everything is ok. Is that not like God? How many times have we done things that irritate, frustrate and upset God and He gives us the benefit of doubt? What’s even better is He KNOWS the thoughts behind the things He does and brushes a lot of stuff off! How do I know that? You’re still living! Had He responded to you based upon your actions, you probably wouldn’t be here.
There are more things that happen between the Boo and I that makes me think a lot about the love of Christ and how much God loves us. Each time I have a new grasp on understanding the love of God, I’m hit with something new and it makes me realize so much more that I am not deserving of His love but He loves me anyway. He loves me passionately and to the very depths of my soul…past each and every one of my flaws.
More and more I am learning who the Boo is in my life and His purpose in it. Dear Mister, thank you for being you. Thank you for being such an example to me of ministry, of sharing the love of God with others, of being a child of God. I appreciate you so much and am beyond honored to stand beside you as your significant other (lol). It is my pleasure to love you, support you, encourage you and labor beside (and for) you. I thank God for sending such a powerful man of God into my life! I love you, babe!